‘An inquiry of a meandering mind’ 23/072012
Inside I’m crying
By Paul Greet
“There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.” ― Laurell K. Hamilton, Mistral’s Kiss
It often seems impossible to show people how desperate you are, desperate with every fibre of your being, screaming at a world that never listens, crying out for someone to say ‘I love you and I will support you for all that you are’. I know how the hurt and sadness grows inside you, feeling like a jigsaw with a missing piece that can never be found no matter how much you search. I know how much you punish yourself for not being happy you’re alive, for not finding that beauty in life. Forever wondering that if you were to look at yourself with someone else’s eyes, would you like what you see. I know when you cast your eyes and heart on the world around you, when you dare venture into the wide open space you can almost feel the pain of others piercing your heart like a knife.
When some of the things that have caused you the most pain in life, seem to stay with you and you cannot seem to let go no matter how hard you try. I know when your tears sting your face because you have cried that much. I know when your thoughts race so fast it feels like fireworks in your mind. And the constant battle between your head and your heart, I know these things because these are battles I face nearly every day.
The struggle with depression is not an easy one and these words are intended to reach out and hold the hands of anyone that faces their own battle with depression. Depression has no mercy, it comes in many forms and it cares not who it inflicts and it can grab hold of anyone at any time.
So these words wanted to let you know, you’re not alone, someone is listening, you can stop screaming and start accepting who you are, you are beautiful in every way. You are not broken, you do not need fixing, you just need acceptance. So when you feel like you’re losing the race with depression, reach out, I’ll hold your hand and we can cross the finishing line together.
The world is changing and there is an abundance of help out there, if you want it, I can’t always promise you I’ll have the answers I’m still searching myself, but I can promise you there is a future and it can shine. So next time you feel lost in the forest of life and you can’t find the path. I will listen and will endeavour to put you in touch with organisations that can support you if you need it.
Somebody loves you more than you know.
Keep on keeping on and thank you for being part of the conversation.
Please welcome our newest member of staff QueenBee. When I posted for staff I didn’t think I’d get such a quick response but then again I of all people should know when you ask the universe for something and you have worked hard towards it then sure enough they send you a angel 🙂 xxx
My journey started off rather peculiarly. If at the time some one was to tell me that now I’d be a well respected empath, psychic, medium running my own website, several social network groups & nine different chat sites…I’d have laughed in their face. I started out giving readings online & from my home back in Ireland but it wasn’t enough. I wanted to be able to help more people. So I sat my Psychic & Medium Test & became one of the most respected & sought after Readers on site. I loved the sites I belonged to but I knew it was time for me to branch out on my own so I set up here. I have always been gifted although until my journey of self discover started a year & a half ago I never knew quite what to call it. When I was fifteen I attempted to commit suicide & was rushed into hospital where they had to pump my stomach. I remember afterwards lying there in the dark ward looking up at the ceiling thinking about what had happened. Suddenly I felt as if i was slipping away. At first I was scared but then I seen this white light & the most unbelievable feeling of total peace & tranquility filled me. I knew I was dying & I was glad. Then just as I felt I was going to reach that light & my body had let go something pulled me back. I begged with it, “just let me go, I want to go,” but it kept pulling me away from the light. I started to cry pleading, “I want to die, why won’t you just let me die?” When a voice, the most beautiful voice I have ever heard so much so that my very soul wanted to burst into tears because it was so overwhelming, said to me, “No. You have something here to do first.” Suddenly I sat up in bed with a jump. There was a nurse sitting on the empty bed beside me & she asked me if I was ok. For some odd reason I just started blurting everything out that had happened. I couldn’t help myself…it was as if I HAD to tell her. She sat quietly listening & when I had finished she looked at me calmly & said, “God has spoken to you & spared you for a reason.” Maybe someday I’ll know why 🙂 Peace Love Light xxx
Don’t forget that we are officially opening our doors on the 29th of July at 10pm and to mark this occasion we will be holding a lecture in #Lectures room. This months lecture is on Toxic energy and Toxic People conducted by Bracha Malka Miller. To read more of her articles please go to http://www.inspiredmessenger.com
Pottsi from http://www.mibbit.com for help us set up our Chat Site and insuring that everything on the site was up and running. With out his patients and expertise none of this would of been possible. So we have decided that he will receive a life times supply of free services for his kindness and patience. Congratulations Pottsi! 🙂 xxx